Peaceful Easy Feeling
Weigh Day #18
Weight – 124.8 Kilograms, 19.65 Stone, 275.13 Pounds
Fortnightly Weight Gain – 0.4 Kilograms, 0.88 Pounds
Total Weight Loss – 12.9 Kilograms, 2.03 Stone, 28.43 Pounds
BMI – 38.3 (Obese), Total BMI Loss – 4.0, Check Your BMI
Fortnightly Summary
That Peaceful Easy Feeling
Ah, there’s nothing better than a peaceful easy feeling. What I mean is being at ease with yourself and your surroundings despite life being a little tricky recently. A measure of where I am these days.
Yeah, I know, no weigh day last week. I did explain in my last blog. Pathetic excuse but at least I jumped on the scales this week. A slight gain. No surprises there but barely any damage done even if progression has been hampered these past few weeks.
It felt mighty good to get back on those scales again. That was the first weigh day I’ve missed since starting last October. I was adamant and determined not to miss out this time. The post-holiday week was excellent regarding eating (bar yesterday, more of in a bit!). I was surprised at how easy it was to get back on the horse after our Italian adventure.
Ok, so there is a little weight gain over the two weeks. Nothing to stress about. I am a little concerned that February has been a complete washout. Nothing, I cannot address.
Blame?
The Bleeding Obvious
The month didn’t start well with a massive drinking session and the business with the shoes (my ankles have healed marvellously). Holiday mode and consuming everything I shouldn’t. Admittedly, I feel I let myself go a little last month.
Weekends have become an excuse for a debauchery of food. Last night was no exception as I ate through house and home, whilst catching up with the latest series of The Grand Tour on Amazon Prime. I’ve still not cracked watching TV and overeating! Something else to work on!
And Yet…
Happiness abounds!
If truth be told, I’m a little confused. At my age, this is not uncommon but given the fact February was not a great month on this journey and progression hampered, I’d have thought I’d find myself in a much darker place. I think this is a measure of where I’ve come so far. This is a heck of a bumpy ride, and you have to take the rough with the smooth, the ups and downs. Because there are many along the way.
Taking Positives
This is crucial. I’m in this for the long run. I must keep going, and work harder to reach my goals.
Feeling Better
As I walked my freeloading friend around the rubbish-strewn streets of North Manchester, yesterday morning, I was admiring how easy I was walking and the pace I was keeping. When I started, this sort of pace was not possible. I was barely out of breath even after 5000 steps. I look back and remember exactly what a mess I was.
That Peaceful Easy Feeling
The Sertraline “happy pills” are what kept me from going completely loopy when I was at my heaviest. I still need them, and they help create this positive vibes.
The Critical Factor
Don’t Despair!
I only lost 0.7 kilos in February. The whole month became a washout. Am I in despair? Am I buggery! I’m feeling positive vibes. Yes, it can be a little frustrating but at the end of the day, I only have myself to blame. And I am the only one who can fix this. There were three main positives…
- I didn’t gain weight.
- Going into March, I feel fantastic.
- I had a lovely break in Italy which invigorated me.
Yes, there are still some concerns. I feel like I got out of February alive. This gives me much hope.
Going Forwards
Wobbly Weekends
This is something I must address now and is my biggest concern. Yesterday was no exception. I did consider alcohol consumption but refrained. However, I was gorging in front of the TV and ended up being sick. This happened every weekend in February. I’m a little annoyed as I thought I’d cracked this.
Ahead Not Back
In life, shit happens. And happens quite a lot. I’m addressing problems honestly and openly. For too long, I kept stuff like this under wraps. Writing helps soothe the soul. Every day is a new start, a new beginning.
New Month, New Start
As previously reported, since Christmas, I’ve let life events get in the way of progression. I’m using any old excuse to halt doing what I’ve been doing and fall off the wagon. The result of this approach was minimal weight loss last month.
Clear Run
I don’t have another life event until 6th April. I’ve got a clear run for a month, so a good opportunity to address the problems and lose some weight. Despite the wobble, I had a good week and am in a good place. Just need to focus more.
It’s also imperative that I approach this next event more sensibly. Limit alcohol or not drink alcohol at all. I’ve realised just how much these life events hamper progression. When I drink alcohol, this always causes carnage of some description!
The Week Ahead
Plans
Predictably, I got a taste for carbs and sugar whence in Italy. Every day at work last week, I nibbled on some biscuits. Not many, but nibbled, nonetheless. The plan for the week looks like this.
- Continue Cutting Down Sugar Intake.
- Less Carbs.
- Count Calories Every Day From Today (missed out yesterday)
- Adopt a detox approach like when I started.
- Keep walking 10000 steps a day (work), 5000 (weekends)
I’ve another cunning plan up my sleeve which I’m not disclosing right now!!!! For now, I’m embracing this wonderful peaceful easy feeling and enjoying every second.
