Never Enough
Weigh Day #7
Weight – 129.45 Kilograms, 20.38 Stone, 285.38 Pounds
Weekly Weight Loss – 0.6 Kilograms, 1.32 Pounds
Total Weight Loss – 8.25 Kilograms, 1.29 Stone, 18.18 Pounds
BMI – 39.7 (Obese), Total BMI Loss – 2.7, Check Your BMI
"happiness is never enough" Mike Edwards, Jesus Jones, 1989
Why Is It Never Enough?
Sometimes, it feels like there’s never enough weight loss. We all want to be rapidly losing lots of weight quickly, don’t we? There’s always going to be part of me who thinks the old way. I couldn’t help but possess that feeling of disappointment when I stood on the scales this morning, Been there, done that! Thankfully, the feeling of dread passed by quicker than a Japanese bullet train. These days, I embrace ANY weight loss instead of being negative. And another 0.6 kilos is not to be sniffed at. Also, I can pinpoint where things went wrong this week, mostly last weekend on the night shift.
Biscuits and take away never a good combination. I suspect less weight loss was mostly caused by biscuits and almost stale doughnut consumption. The takeaway tasted extremely good but it’s hard to judge exactly how many calories were going in my system. Everything happens for a reason and you don’t stop being addicted to food overnight. The rest of the week – food-wise – passed by without incident. Yeah, I could have done more steps but we could always do more steps! And I had one jam doughnut which surprisingly wasn’t too sweet. I never troubled the biscuit jar again. In fact, it’s the only time I’ve troubled the biscuit jar since starting my journey.
Milestones!
I look at things through completely different eyes now. On noticing the figures, I surpassed two milestones. I’d not noticed milestones before but they’re something to look out for. And when you achieve, you feel a great sense of pride. My BMI is under 40. Looking at the BMI chart, to change from obese to overweight, my BMI needs to get below 30. The reality of how much work is to be done is still there. And these little reminders do keep me going sometimes. The second milestone is my weight is under 130 kilos. So, I might not have lost so much this week but I’ve cracked two barriers. I like looking at figures and analysing them!
I accept that some weeks will be better than others. Larice said a poignant thing to me this morning (she ‘only’ lost 200 grams this week), that if you take the weight loss over two weeks then we are both bang on track. She’s lost a kilo and I’ve lost two. This is the way you have to think. I know I bang on about it, but it is a long game! Keep saying that to yourself, it does sink in eventually! My next milestone is to get under the 20-stone mark. Another milestone is to get my wedding ring back on my finger. Watch this space! When you start thinking about it there are lots of little milestones you can aim for. When I get a chance I think I will make a list! And share, naturally!
Where I’m At
I’m in an extremely good place now. I feel so much better. My clothes are loosening week by week. But, and isn’t there always a but? I am fully aware of what a long journey lies ahead. Getting going was for me, the hardest part of this journey. I sometimes forget I’ve only been doing this for less than two months. I feel the progression so far is startling given where I was back in October. I’ve completely changed my attitude and this is something I never thought I’d be able to achieve.
My app says I should be losing around a kilo a week. On that basis, I am slightly ahead of target. I’m not looking at that kind of weekly target. I plan to just keep going, doing the best I can, and staying focused. The journey is more than weight loss. This is about my whole lifestyle and mental health. This is me finally heading towards a place I have always wanted. The momentum is here, but will it last?
Keep Writing!
Probably the most important aspect is documenting my journey. Having the notes and pictures to look back on. Even in this short space of time, I find I am buzzing through the improvement. The blogs are a medicine for me. They help keep me off the food and help keep me focused. I’m just moving forward, taking everything I’ve learned with me. I’m finding the transformation surprisingly effortless. I do look back though as it’s important to know where you come from. I cannot believe the person I was when I started.
Summary
Not such a big weight loss this week. I expected that for a couple of reasons. a) the bad food at the weekend and b) I lost 1.5 kilos on weigh day #6. Over the last two weeks, there’s been a two-kilo loss which is bang on the money. I’m delighted to reach those two milestones. It has got me thinking of more milestones to jot down and aim for. I know it’s easy to have a ‘never enough’ attitude but embrace all weight loss, however small. Keep following the right path and in the long run, you’ll be fine.
The Week Ahead
Something is definitely enough! Carry on with three meals a day around 2000 calories. See where I’m at on weigh day#8. Try not to let Christmas time and all those evil temptations present, get in the way!! A few more steps this week.
Any positive is better than a negative mate
Yes, totally, it’s the way I see things now.