Disappointed

Weigh Day #4

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Disappointed to say the least. A month in, it was always going to happen. Minimal weight loss and feelings of slight deflation. How did I address such a crisis?

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132.75 Kilograms, 20.90 Stone, 292.66 Pounds

Weekly Weight Loss – 0.3 Kilograms, 0.66 Pounds

Total Weight Loss – 4.95 Kilograms, 0.77 Stone, 10.91 Pounds

BMI – 40.9 (Obese)

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Change Of Weigh Day

From Monday To Saturday

Before I proceed, I’ve changed my weigh day to a Saturday. Monday was good and I proved to myself I could cut down at weekends but it was clear very quickly, that Monday was not a suitable weigh day. At the start of the working week and having my weekly Zoom meeting, it was nigh on impossible to write a blog (I have little or no creative flow whence I get back to HQ after work).

The blogs always felt somewhat rushed. Saturday morning is my traditional weigh day so from this point on, I shall be weighing and updating Saturdays. Plus, I can write when my new weight is fresh in my mind. I’ve spent the morning analysing the past few days. Right, that’s the housekeeping/admin bit out of the way, on with the blog and how I feel after weigh day #4!

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Where It Went Wrong

False Start

Obviously, there was only a five-day window between weigh ins but even so I have to be disappointed with the tiny weight loss. There was a horrible feeling of disillusionment and failure as the figures began to sink in.

Had to happen, was always going to happen. Not much weight loss. It’s only five days but losing over a kilo a week since starting, to only shed 300 grams (0.66 Pounds) is nothing short of a disappointment. Well, that was my thought at 8-30 AM just after I weighed myself. This lesser weight loss couldn’t have come at a better time. Funnily enough, those who are trying to lose weight with me have not had as good a week as expected so maybe there is something in the air this week!

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Digesting Problems

What Went Wrong?

I’ve spent the morning digesting where I’ve gone wrong. I mean, I kept within my calories and am still obese enough to expect to continue losing at least a kilo a week. And then I got thinking, well this week I’ve walked less and been less active. Yes I know I wrote a whole blog about exercise is not as important for weight loss as some suggest.

I still maintain the stance that probably around 20% is exercise but after this week, I think it helps more than I thought. Also, I’ve eaten some less good-for-you foodstuffs. Sandwiches and a small slice of pizza, homemade cake and last night, we ate the Pork Schnitzel which has been gathering ice in the freezer for some weeks!

We used to love these schnitzels but to be honest, neither me or Larice particularly enjoyed them yesterday. I had mine with only mayonnaise and found it a quite unpleasant eating experience! I also ate pasta for the first time since I started this. Everything was weighed out but maybe this type of food slows down the process. I am going to try to stick with fresher food this week. Hardly a major wobble but after riding the crest of a wave since I started, to have such a small loss is a bit of a kick in the teeth.

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The Disappointed

Finding My Way

I’m so glad it happened today because with Monday being such a busy day, I fear I may have cracked. I am remaining strong and remaining standing. After that initial feeling of being disappointed, I began to embrace my achievements so far and this is a stark reminder that not every week is going to go spiffingly well and there will be let downs and disappointments along the way. I’ve been expecting disappointment at some point.

The problem is we have been programmed to want everything yesterday. This is why more and more people are turning to medication and surgery for weight loss because they don’t have the willpower. I get that because sometimes it’s hard, really hard.

Every week is a learning curve and an opportunity to look at things. Life is a mountain climb and getting to the top takes a lot of hard work. The first disappointment hit me a little but not too much. This is because I’ve completely changed my way of thinking. When you start having disappointments, you are most vulnerable to returning to old ways. At least my brain seems to be able to cope with a slight setback. If anything, I am becoming more determined to succeed. The realisation that it’s not or ever is going to be easy is beginning to sink in.

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Disappointed With Result

Great Progression

I’ve looked at the overall figures. Stared for a few minutes, let my disappointed persona be disappointed for a while. Not far off a stone (6 kilos) in five days short of a month, my BMI is reducing weekly. I have long-term goals, not a short-term fix. I feel fitter, feel better, am moving better, am eating better. So many positives. It’s not like I’ve put on weight either so many more positives than negatives. This is the moment when many crack after not losing much weight. Not me, I’m keeping this health head-on! It’s great being at weigh day #4 and feeling so invigorated and enthusiastic.

EMBRACE ANY WEIGHT LOSS. ALL WEIGHT LOSS IS EXCELLENT!

I’ve convinced myself that breaking new habits and gorging like I used to will not solve anything because it doesn’t. I always remember going into a gorging session thinking it would somehow make me happy but it never does. Yes, you get that feeling of comfort from sweet and savoury foods but that is about it. Especially when you’re obese and completely addicted to food! I’ve also noticed that whilst I am still chewing more than I used to, some old habits of eating too fast have started creeping in. Instead of sinking, I am determined to swim, brush the dust off my gut and go again! Disappointed, but still fighting!

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